A few weeks ago, I spent four days in the mountains of Colorado with one hundred Christian men from across the country. We gathered at a lodge deep in the backcountry, removed from the noise and pace of everyday life, with a shared desire to be filled up and step more fully into the men God created us to be. The guys I met all looked different on the outside, but on our first night together, we realized we had more in common than we expected.
Wrapping up dinner, we were given a simple instruction. Write down the state of your heart as you walked into the weekend. No names, no explanations, just honesty. Then post your response on the wall and take time to read what the other men have written. This was a vulnerable, sacred experience.
Some of the words that guys shared on those cards…
- Tired
- Scared
- Angry
- Frustrated
- In pain
- Anxious
- At the edge
- Overwhelmed
- Not the man I want to be
- Falling behind
The themes were consistent across the wall, and it became immediately clear that the state of men’s hearts is not that different. Walking into that room, I saw strong men and leaders who love Jesus. These were the kind of guys who carry weight in their homes, workplaces, and communities. Some were tattooed and physically imposing, others quiet and steady, but all of them were the kind of men who step up when things get hard.
That’s what was visible on the outside… those cards on the wall told a deeper story. Beneath the surface, these Christian men were tired. They were carrying pressure, wrestling with anxiety, and questioning themselves. These are the things we don’t say out loud in front of anyone, especially other guys, but at the core, every man in that room was asking the same question, whether he said it out loud or not:
Am I enough?
That question drives so much of how we live. We try to be everything for everyone, pushing harder and carrying more. Over time, striving to be “enough” becomes exhausting. The truth is, most men (Christian or not) are carrying more than they let on. Even the ones who look like they have it all together are feeling the weight.
The shift begins when we stop pretending otherwise. When we acknowledge where we’re really at and invite other men into that space, something changes. Walls come down, and conversations get real. Do this with other Christian men, and we begin to experience the kind of brotherhood that reminds us we were never meant to carry this alone.
Lean into that last line for a second… We weren’t meant to carry this alone. We bring our burdens to Jesus, and walk side-by-side with Christian brothers who have burdens of their own. There are not many places where men can show up like that. More often than not, we walk into rooms that add to the pressure. We’ve been conditioned to believe that strength means having it all together, staying in control, and never letting the weight show. That version of strength is incomplete, and it’s not the promise God has for you.
Real strength is found in connection. It’s built when men choose honesty over image and stand shoulder to shoulder with others who understand the struggle. It shows up when they commit to carrying their crosses together. That kind of brotherhood brings both accountability and empathy. It sharpens us, steadies us, and reminds us where our strength and our identity come from: Jesus.
The gift I brought back from Colorado is powerful. It’s a realization that the weight I feel is not unique. Other men feel it too. The good news? When we choose to stop carrying that weight alone, when we open up to trusted brothers and invite God into the middle of it, we find our strength and can release control. That’s the journey I find myself on now, back at home… releasing control.
If you’re reading this and don’t have that kind of brotherhood, I want to encourage you to seek it out. Connect with a CBMC Trusted Advisor Forum or get involved in an Operation Timothy relationship. Find a men’s Bible study at your church. Reach out to an old friend and reconnect.
Even if it feels uncomfortable at first (and it might), find spaces where you can connect with other Christian men. Lean into that discomfort. Satan will tell you that you’re the only one carrying weights like these, and he’ll try to convince you to carry them alone. He’s a liar, and isolation is his greatest weapon. Battle back and get into a circle with other Christian guys.
By: John Gamades, Author of WAR: A Tactical Guide for Christian Men










